Niftie

Just more than even but also.

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"Ephemeral Lights"When everyone here at school plays Humans Versus Zombies, one of my friends dons this badass alternate persona that goes by the name Ephemeral Lights 

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"Ephemeral Lights"

When everyone here at school plays Humans Versus Zombies, one of my friends dons this badass alternate persona that goes by the name Ephemeral Lights 

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I don’t know what even anymore.

I don’t even come to this website that often, but I needed a place to be upset.

I really don’t like feeling apprehensive about everything. I’m scared to do things because of social standards that have been placed before me. I just want to do things that will make me smile and be happy, but fuck if that isn’t really god damn difficult for me.

I think I have dyslexia. I’ve been having a lot of trouble reading things all my life, just because I get distracted and hop around on the page. Lately, I haven’t necessarily been hopping around on the page, but I’m just pulling words from lines away into the sentence I’m reading. Suddenly “do” becomes “don’t”, and instructions are really fucking difficult.

I’m really starting to hate my job at this point. I feel like they don’t treat all of the employees on an equal level and a lot of it has to do with the fact that it’s so incredibly cliquey. One of my few favorite co-workers is gone now, along with the fact that the other ones that I like, are trying to get out as quickly as possible.

I don’t know what I’m doing as of a living situation at this point. I want to keep living here, and I’m not against continuing to live with Anjelica, but I don’t feel like we’ve had enough communication on that whole deal.

I’m going to be seriously on HRT now, and that would be totally 100% awesome if it weren’t for my fear of being mistreated. At the moment I just shrug off assholes who are rude to me, or people who just really like to look at a trans girl as a sexual object, but I don’t know how that’s gonna’ go once I’m slightly less in control of my emotions because hormones.

You’re also another thing that’s making this difficult at the moment. I just wish I didn’t have such a fear of speaking and I could just talk to you about it.

TL;DR, I have trouble talking and reading. I’m scared of a lot of things, but, mostly hormones and emotions.

PS. I’m not spellchecking/grammarchecking any of this, nor am I ever reading it again. Just needed to say some stuff to the endless void of the Internet.

Filed under rant personal transgender HRT emotions fear dyslexia

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There.

  • 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? No.
  • 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? No.
  • 3. Have you taken someones virginity? No.
  • 4. Is trust a big issue for you? No.
  • 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? No.
  • 6. What are you excited for? HvZ. My own place. The first.
  • 7. What happened tonight? Walmart.
  • 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? I get really wasted.
  • 9. Is confidence cute? Yeah.
  • 10. What is the last beverage you had? Mike’s Harder Black Cherry
  • 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Three.
  • 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? No.
  • 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Not sure yet.
  • 14. What are you going to spend money on next? PvC.
  • 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? No.
  • 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? Probably.
  • 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? No one.
  • 18. The last time you felt broken? Whenever Dani Salvatore tagged me during HvZ.
  • 19. Have you had sex today? No.
  • 20. Are you starting to realize anything? This is stupid. Fuck your question.
  • 21. Are you in a good mood? Sure.
  • 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? No.
  • 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? I already have it.
  • 24. What do you want right this second? You.
  • 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? Okay.
  • 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Yeah.
  • 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? No.
  • 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Emena Santiago.
  • 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Yeah.
  • 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? No.
  • 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? No.
  • 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? Yeah.
  • 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? No. Stupid.
  • 34. Listening to? The fan in this laptop.
  • 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? No.
  • 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? No.
  • 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really.
  • 38. Who did you last call? Georgia.
  • 39. Who was the last person you danced with? Coworkers.
  • 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Alchohohl.
  • 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Thanksgiving.
  • 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? Nope.
  • 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Probably.
  • 44. Do you tan in the nude? I don’t tan.
  • 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? lolnope
  • 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Yep.
  • 47. Who was the last person to call you? Georgia.
  • 48. Do you sing in the shower? Yep.
  • 49. Do you dance in the car? Yeah.
  • 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Yeah.
  • 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Oct 18th.
  • 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Nope.
  • 53. Is Christmas stressful? Yep.
  • 54. Ever eat a pierogi? Yep.
  • 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Cherry.
  • 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Gamestop. I worked there. Bad idea.
  • 57. Do you believe in ghosts? Nope.
  • 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? All the time.
  • 59. Take a vitamin daily? Nope.
  • 60. Wear slippers? I wish.
  • 61. Wear a bath robe? Nope.
  • 62. What do you wear to bed? Not much.
  • 63. First concert? Decoration Ghost.
  • 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target.
  • 65. Nike or Adidas? Neither.
  • 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? Fritos.
  • 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts.
  • 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? You belong with me.
  • 69. Ever take dance lessons? Yep.
  • 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Nope.
  • 71. Can you curl your tongue? Yep.
  • 72. Ever won a spelling bee? Second place.
  • 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yep.
  • 74. What is your favorite book? Almost Perfect.
  • 75. Do you study better with or without music? With.
  • 76. Regularly burn incense? Nope, but I should.
  • 77. Ever been in love? Eh.
  • 78. Who would you like to see in concert? GIRUUUUUUUUUGAMESH
  • 79. What was the last concert you saw? Corporate Fandango.
  • 80. Hot tea or cold tea? Cold.
  • 81. Tea or coffee? Tea.
  • 82. Favorite type of cookie? Brown sugar pecan.
  • 83. Can you swim well? Yep.
  • 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? This is a basic skill.
  • 85. Are you patient? No.
  • 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? I’d rather not.
  • 87. Ever won a contest? Yeah.
  • 88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nope.
  • 89. Which are better black or green olives? Green.
  • 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Do it.
  • 91. Best room for a fireplace? UGH GOD DAMMIT
  • 92. Do you want to get married? Yeah, sure whatever.

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1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
6. What are you excited for?
7. What happened tonight?
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
9. Is confidence cute?
10. What is the last beverage you had?
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
18. The last time you felt broken?
19. Have you had sex today?
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
21. Are you in a good mood?
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
24. What do you want right this second?
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
34. Listening to?
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
38. Who did you last call?
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
44. Do you tan in the nude?
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
47. Who was the last person to call you?
48. Do you sing in the shower?
49. Do you dance in the car?
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
53. Is Christmas stressful?
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
59. Take a vitamin daily?
60. Wear slippers?
61. Wear a bath robe?
62. What do you wear to bed?
63. First concert?
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
65. Nike or Adidas?
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
69. Ever take dance lessons?
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
71. Can you curl your tongue?
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
74. What is your favorite book?
75. Do you study better with or without music?
76. Regularly burn incense?
77. Ever been in love?
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
79. What was the last concert you saw?
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
81. Tea or coffee?
82. Favorite type of cookie?
83. Can you swim well?
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
85. Are you patient?
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
87. Ever won a contest?
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
89. Which are better black or green olives?
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
91. Best room for a fireplace?
92. Do you want to get married?

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Reblog and see if you get a color.

PURPLE:
I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.
FUSCHIA:
I wish we were friends in real life.
RED:
I love you with a burning passion.
GREY:
I wish you would notice me.
PINK:
I think you should follow me.
TEAL:
We have a lot in common.
BLUE:
You are my tumblr crush.
ORANGE:
I don’t like your blog.
YELLOW:
FUCK ME PLEASE.
WHITE:
MARRY ME PLEASE.
GREEN:
I think you’re cute.
BLACK:
I would date you.
BROWN:
I don’t like you.

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01:
Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
02:
Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
03:
Your views on drugs and alcohol.
04:
Your views on religion.
05:
A time you thought about ending your own life.
06:
Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
07:
Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
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A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
09:
How you hope your future will be like.
10:
Discuss your first love and first kiss.
11:
Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
12:
Bullet your whole day.
13:
Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
14:
Your earliest memory.
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Your favorite tumblrs.
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Your views on mainstream music.
17:
Your highs and lows of this past year.
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Your beliefs.
19:
Disrespecting your parents.
20:
How important you think education is.
21:
One of your favorite shows.
22:
How have you changed in the past 2 years?
23:
Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
24:
Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
25:
Someone who fascinates you and why.
26:
What kind of person attracts you.
27:
A problem that you have had.
28:
Something that you miss.
29:
Goals for the next 30 days.
30:
Your highs and lows of this month.

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tactlessmalcontent asked: 4 24 34 55 81 :)

Okay, hold on. I didn’t actually read the questions. ….

4. No, not really. I generally feel comfortable with most people.

24. Someone to cuddle with and food. Also warm.

34. Predators is playing on the T.V. behind me. I’m not watching it, just listening.

55. For some reason I my brain couldn’t comprehend this question as not being sexual. Too much brain melting today. Rhubarb.

81. Tea, by far.

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ask away

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
6. What are you excited for?
7. What happened tonight?
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
9. Is confidence cute?
10. What is the last beverage you had?
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
18. The last time you felt broken?
19. Have you had sex today?
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
21. Are you in a good mood?
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
24. What do you want right this second?
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
34. Listening to?
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
38. Who did you last call?
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
44. Do you tan in the nude?
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
47. Who was the last person to call you?
48. Do you sing in the shower?
49. Do you dance in the car?
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
53. Is Christmas stressful?
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
59. Take a vitamin daily?
60. Wear slippers?
61. Wear a bath robe?
62. What do you wear to bed?
63. First concert?
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
65. Nike or Adidas?
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
69. Ever take dance lessons?
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
71. Can you curl your tongue?
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
74. What is your favorite book?
75. Do you study better with or without music?
76. Regularly burn incense?
77. Ever been in love?
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
79. What was the last concert you saw?
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
81. Tea or coffee?
82. Favorite type of cookie?
83. Can you swim well?
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
85. Are you patient?
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
87. Ever won a contest?
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
89. Which are better black or green olives?
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
91. Best room for a fireplace?
92. Do you want to get married?